Taking Back...

I have decided to take back all my stuff...
That little colored boy that I vowed to always protect
His innocence that was taken
In the midst of feelings of what he thought he was experiencing
A love affair between good and evil which darkened his spirits
What was HIS, had been taken
Without his consent or understanding...

That voice that was once heard long before he had entered his world
A smile once free from all of your burdens and misfortunes
Somehow accepted them to be my own

I counted my blessings before and after you’ve introduced me to this world of betrayal and hurt
Not to my surprise
What I was left with was a cheapened version of ME
Walking with my head low 
And filled with doubts
Of course on my own fine tune beat
But to what was orchestrated from a conductor in misery

I had changed my lens in search for a better perception on life
When I had realized that it wasn’t for me
The me I wanted to be
He had already walked with all of my stuff

Granted not in a plastic bag
In a bag that I had purchased 
Not aware of their intentions
That this would be the bag that all my stuff would be taken in

For every departure a piece of me had been taken
Soon before I had noticed,
When I had realized that the reflection starring back at me wasn’t the me I used to know
The ME I had grown to be
My ME had been victimized to the brutality of another beings care

Now I want back all of my stuff
And I mean all of my stuff
Though I’m not that colored boy I used to be but I want him back too
To tuck him away and be true to that bargain we made
And if he isn’t alive
Give me back his spirit and well to be
Someone far greater than what you had convinced him to be

What this will be...
Time of tales of all of the agony and pain I want to be a distant memory
I’ve GROWN
And still growing; in a transition to be the man I ought to be
Fearless to any beings words of discouragements 
Free of all ties
Re-binding myself to life
To BE
To DREAM
To LIVE
To LOVE
To SEE
That not everything presented before is what ought to be

So, I have decided to take back all that had been MINE
Taken for granted and used for someone else’s encore performance
And can you believe I wasn’t the lead star
I am deciding who is to receive 
This LOVE that will not be taken for granted
My care and understanding once taken
Will now be on my schedule of release

I am still standing
Not as the person I was before
What he had taken was the old me, 
You can consider it “old news”

Now, 
More refine, wiser and willing to accept life as it may as well be
Taking hold of all that should be
All that I had envisioned

Please you can keep that stuff...
I took back what was mine
I’m through taking back.

-Still Standing