I will never not love him.

Whenever I sit down to write this love story of me and my first Miami crush nothing comes out. And I always wonder why? The connection we had was so natural, so right, yet the timing was always so wrong. What I felt for him I do not think I will ever feel for another person. A person that I bonded with so instantly. I will always believe he was my soul mate. Too bad we will never see what we could be. Not that on several occasions we haven't tried, but he is so tarnished by all those terrible women of his past that he is afraid of what something great with an amazing woman, me!, could be like. But I'm a believer of what is meant to be will be. If he truly is my soul mate, we will in due time find each other again. 

Any person, who knows me, knows I do not want children. But he is the only man with a child I am willing to consider into my life. Because I feel the lust, passion and connection we felt could truly blossom into an amazing love affair. 

So its not that I can't write our love story. It is just that the way I feel for this man cannot be put into words. I know what we shared was rare and real, and I wouldn't erase those feelings for anything. They have made me a better, stronger and more confident lover. He is amazing and I wish he finds someone that will accept him and love him nearly as much as I did. 

So I will never not love him, but I have just learned how to love him...